Psalm of the Addict in the Ditch by Jeff Callaway
Psalm of the Addict in the Ditch By Jeff Callaway Texas Outlaw Poet "Unhappy man that I am, who shall deliver me from the body of this death? The grace of God, by Jesus Christ our Lord." — Romans 7:24, Douay-Rheims Bible I. There is no clean way to begin this. No incense. No proper throne room entry. No Davidic harp tuned right and candles lit and vestments pressed and everybody standing like they know how to be in church. This one begins in the ditch. Specifically: a gas station bathroom somewhere off Highway 31 in Henderson County, Texas, 2:47 in the morning, fluorescent light buzzing like a wasp in a jar, mirror showing a man I do not recognize, both of us unsure there is a reason to leave. The floor is cold. My hands are not clean. The words keep breaking before I can finish them. Lord, I have nothing to offer You tonight but this ruin. Not a clean conscience. Not a reformed biography. Not the version of this I rehearsed standing outside the door of confession before I l...
